The Life of Janel

Why am I still awake at 2AM??

2009-11-05T22:59:00.000-08:00

So, I'm sitting here drinking my hot chocolate, watching TV and I think to myself - I haven't looked at my OWN blog in FOREVER! I came on over and what did I find - 3100 views - REALLY?!?! On my boring, never make a new post blog?!?!?!? cool.....

Things are just going around here. I feel like the only time I blog is when I have something to complain about - so, here goes...

If you've read my blog before you know that I had my esophagus replaced when I was 9 and follow up surgeries after that etc... and that last year I was in the hospital because I couldn't swallow anything following an endoscopy. Well, last month I ended up in the hospital b/c I couldn't swallow anything because I coughed too hard and my esophagus swelled up. Long story short (too late! haha), I had a swallowing test done last week just to see what was going on. Yesterday I felt my throat starting to swell up again (for no reason at all this time) - it wasn't hospital bad, but bad enough that I called my GI doctor (Dr. D). He looked at my swallowing test and deemed another endoscopy with dillitation necessary.

Monday is my big day! Monday afternoon I am going in for my proceedure - needless to say, I'm a little FREAKED out given the results from last time.

Enough bad medical news - on to the explaination of the title - why AM I still awake at 2AM? I am a hobby cake decorator and a good friend asked me to make a Minnie Mouse cake topper for a cake that she is making for her daughter. Of course I said - SURE! Now I would like to go back in time and kick myself!

Bet you didn't know that Minnie Mouse is a pain in the a$$! I have worked on her for over a week and tonight I went to work on her head etc (my figures are made out of fondant/gumpaste and are 100% edible) and noticed that not only had her leg broke, her shoes cracked and her bow fell off her shoe, plus she was leaning as if intoxicated. I informed my friend of the issue and tried to salvage 3d Minnie, it didn't work. So, I moved on to make a 2d Minnie - DISASTER - don't ask why - I don't know, it just didn't work, AT ALL!

So, I took a deep breath, said a prayer and when to Cakecentral (cake decorators bible online - hehe!) And what do I see on the HOMEPAGE - 3d Minnie Mouse! It was a little bit different than the way I wanted her to look, but hey - God sends a message and I listened! I am proud to say that after a week Minnie Mouse is 90% complete. I decided that I had had enough for one day and sat down to drink my hot chocolate, remembered my blog etc etc etc.....

Now that the hot chocolate is gone (to my hips) I am going to B-E-D.

Goodnight my 3100 readers - thanks for stopping by!

Janel

MacKenzie's 2nd Year....

2009-09-01T19:46:00.000-07:00

The Dentist Part II.

2009-04-07T20:16:00.001-07:00

So, on Thursday I am headed back to the dentist to get the other half of my teeth cleaned. I am already stressing about it and my mouth is still broken out from last time. At least this week they are putting me to sleep totally. I am hoping that it won't be as bad as I'm expecting. I could really use some prayers though.

I am really excited about Easter - even though I probably won't be able to eat anything! My dad asked me to try to replicate the Coconut Cake that his mom used to make. I'm kind of excited that he asked me, I know its hard to explain but it was sort of an honor for me. (I know that sounds so silly!)

So, anyway - I have a really busy month coming up, but I'm really excited about it all - I have 2 really cool kids birthday cakes to make and I'm helping a friend make 2 cakes for her Derby party. I'm going on a cruise with my friend and then i have a killer graduation cake to do - and that will all take me into June!!

Well, it is getting late, I have been up hoping for a Jonah update, but I'm just a little tired, so its off to bed with me!

Just a Quick Update

2009-03-30T19:17:00.000-07:00

I thought that my mouth was really great after the dentist, but the swelling has not yet gone down and it is pressing the inside of my cheek against my teeth = blisters. So, I'm pretty happy on Oxycodone right now - but I just had to get this post out there -

JONAH'S HOME!!! Amen!

The pics from the Williams Family Blog - ADORABLE! He looks so precious and content and happy! I just know that he will thrive in his home environment!

I just had to get this out there!

Plus, when I checked today, I had hit the 2000 views milemark!! whoo hooo!

Goodnight to all!
Janel

Oh how I HATE the dentist!!

2009-03-26T14:39:00.000-07:00

Ok, so I took a Zanex before going to the dentist and I guess that helped a little bit. The problem is that the dentist has a really hard time getting my mouth numb because of all the scar tissue inside my mouth. Basically, novicane is injected in the "area" that needs to be numb and is supposed to spread out to the surrounding areas, well because of the scar tissue it just gets stuck in a pocket and it really hurts. They only clean 1/2 of my teeth at a time because it takes so long. So, right now I look like a stroke victim. 1/2 my face is totally numb and drooping - of course Shaun made fun of me! What are husbands for!!

After this experience I found out that the other office that my Dentist has does full sedation - WHAT!! Why didn't someone tell me that before - I am so much more pleasant when I am knocked out! Had I known this I would have gone there, gotten the drugs and had them do my whole mouth!! Well, I am having the other side done that way - I just cannot take the novicane again - it hurt so bad!!

Ok, enough whining and complaining, the numbness is wearing off - slowly!

I have a great snowflake cake to make for this weekend for a friends daughter who is having an ice skating party - I'm pretty excited especially after getting my new cake decorating dvd's!! So that is what I will be doing all day tomorrow!

What's on your agenda??

(by the way, after I type these I am generally too darn tired to go back and proof read - so please accept my appologies for misspelling and typos and grammatical errors - just goes to show I am far from perfect - haha!!)

The Dentist

2009-03-26T05:19:00.000-07:00

I need some prayers today - I have a dentist appointment - which for an EB sufferer is like .... well, I just can't seem to think about anything as bad as the dentist.

Anyway - basically, I'm totally FREAKED out!!

Thank you all so much!!

My profile picture

2009-03-25T07:44:00.000-07:00

I had an inquiry as to my profile picture and the absolutely ADORABLE little girl in it (OK, so maybe I'm a little biased!) - Yes, she is my daughter and no she doesn't have EB - praise Jesus!

The picture itself is 4 generations of Gorman women - my grandmother (84), my mom (age unknown - haha!), me (34), and MacKenzie (2).

Our decision to have a baby was not one that we entered into lightly. We wanted to get our DNA test done before we got pregnant, but, the insurance company wouldn't pay for any of that test and it was very expensive. We did not have the funds to get the test done. We did see a genetic counselor who told us everything that we already knew.

Dr. - your family suffers from a dominant form of this disease which mean that each child you have has a 50% chance of having the disease.

me - yes, I know that - however, I do not have the disease the way the rest of my family has.

Dr. - you should have a DNA test done to find out what kind you have.

me - yes, I know that - however, we don't have that kind of money.

Dr. - good luck with whatever you decide - please come back and see me if you get pregnant

me - great - how much did THAT just cost!!

Basically, Shaun (husband) and I sat down and had a very frank discussion that was based on God and God's will. I said, lets just get off the birth control and if we get pregnant then that was God's will and if the baby is healthy then that is God's gift to us, and if the baby isn't healthy then God must have big plans for our baby.

So, we just left it all up to Him. We had a fairly large team of prayer warriors during the pregnancy too!

After I got pregnant the insurance company paid 100% of the DNA test where I found out that I have the recessive dystrophic form and that my mother is a carrier (my father HAS dominant dystrophic).

If you have EB and are thinking of having a baby, I suggest that you see a genetics Dr. and then get the DNA test and then if your faith allows - put it in God's hands.

On another note - although I am still broken out and fairly uncomfortable, my energy is back today and I have actually gotten some laundry done! whoo hooo!!

Thanks for your comments! Keep em coming!

Janel

I am so uncomfortable!

2009-03-24T21:12:00.000-07:00

That is the best way to describe how I feel right now. I have joking told people that I am suffering from Post Traumatic Stress Disorder, but that is truely how I feel. Now that the whole insurance fight is over so is the stress about it - and now the skin reacts....

I am having a very bad EB breakout right now. I have a thousand little blisters and sores all over my body. I itch everywhere. Most of my sores burn and itch. And a little while ago I was just sitting here and felt a really bad spot on my back just split all the way open. My mouth is broken out and it hurts really bad and making it difficult to eat and talk. I am exhausted and it really just hurts to move. Everyone always asks me how I feel - well, now you know. I usually lie and just say that I'm fine, its just not worth spelling all that out.

But if you asked me right now how I feel, I would just simply say that I'm very uncomfortable.

Anyway, my point for this posting was to let those readers who have EB children that are too young to express themselves or those that are not familiar with this disease to hear how EB skin feels sometimes.

Hopefully I will feel better tomorrow or the next day.

Please continue to pray for Jonah Williams, hopefully his mom and dad will be able to take him home soon!

Oh well - I doped up on some Oxycodone for pain and I'm now off to dream land where EB doesn't exist and doesn't hurt poor innocent babies!

Feel free to comment! I noticed that my views have increased and I would love to hear about all of you!!

Janel

Best Week EVER!

2009-03-16T16:28:00.001-07:00

Shaun's vacation was last week and we went to Gatlinburg/Pigeon Forge for a whole week - WE HAD SO MUCH FUN!!

Shaun and his sister and her boyfriend went skiing. M is still too young to ski and I was NOT feeling up to it. One of my blisters became infected as soon as we got there. Good thing I have a supply of antibiotics on file at the pharmacy! A couple days after starting the antibiotic I was feeling much better. We did ALL the touristy things in Gatlinburg/Pigeon Forge - with the exception of Dollywood b/c it wasn't open. We did Wonderworks, the Aquarium, Ripley's museum, the Jurassic park ride, Apple Barn Farms, A great steakhouse (name I can't remember), and Dixie Stampede AND on the way home we stopped off for the Mayfield factory tour and ate some great ice cream.

We broke our road trip up into stops so that it wouldn't cause so much stress on my skin. We stayed in Atlanta on our way, with Shaun's parents and then stayed in Gray at my parents house on the way home. That seemed to help with my blisters, but I still came home with twice as many as I left with - oh well, that is just the nature of the disease.

I continue to pray very hard several times a day for Baby Jonah, he seems to be improving and that is such a blessing.

I am now praying very hard for my SIL, Ali - she is completing her phlabodomy (sp?) degree and was hoping to get into the nursing program. She has an opportunity to work at Emory in Atlanta and should she get this job she will be able to get her nursing degree for free! She is so deserving of this opportunity!

BUT! my BEST NEWS EVER!!! are you ready for it people..........

MY UNUM LONG TERM DISABILITY CLAIM WAS APPROVED!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I can see clearly now the rain is gone.... To say the least it is a fantastic day at the Waters residence! I just want to thank everyone for your continued prayers and blessings - PRAISE JESUS!

ok - off to eat some dinner and the young one ready for BED!!

Praying for Jonah

2009-03-04T05:34:00.000-08:00

It has not been the best week for Epidermolysis Bullosa. Yesterday morning a precious 7 month old baby boy named Jameson died. Please pray for his family in Orlando.

Then a couple days ago a beautiful baby boy named Jonah was born with EB. Jonah is a trooper and seems to be healing, however, he is having problems feeding and they are not sure why. They are waiting for the ENT to come and look him over and see what they can do to get this sweet boy to EAT! The Williams family has been through a very trying time over the last couple years, please keep this family in your prayers and pray that Jonah will eat and pull through.

As for me...I am still working with my insurance company. As some of you know, the insurance company requested an independent medical review - I saw a dermatologist of their choosing in February, we are on the final 45 day countdown to a decision. So, I am now asking for your prayers as well - Please pray that the insurance company will make a speedy and favorable decision on my case.

In the meantime, we had a WONDERFUL family vacation to Orlando for "Have a Heart for EB" - My mom and dad and my brother, sil and nephew, Shaun, MacKenzie and I all got to go together. Unfortunately, Shaun started off the weekend with a pretty nasty head cold/flu and then while at Magic Kingdom, poor baby MacK started running a fever of 101. I have never seen her that sick. She was so lethargic and pitiful. It just broke my heart!! We kept her pretty doped up on Motrin for the rest of the trip and she was OK at Epcot on Sunday and was back to normal on Monday.

We are completely finished potty training - thank goodness!! She still wears a pull up at night and sometimes during her nap, but she is so proud of herself. She is also in a BIG big girl bed. Another of her favorite things right now.

She has moved on from Dora and landed smack in the middle of Max and Ruby and Hello Kitty (meow, meow).

Well, I am off to make a monkey cake for Bailie's (Jen's Daughter) 1st birthday!! CUTE CUTE CUTE!!

FINALLY SOME GOOD NEWS!!!

2008-11-05T15:57:00.001-08:00

So I really thought that I would be better about updating this blog, guess I was wrong about that one too. oh well!!

On to the good news - MY SOCIAL SECURITY DISABILITY WAS APPROVED!!!!!!!! Score one for the good guys! The intial claim was of course a pain in the rear and was denied, the appeal was a piece of cake, so my advise to those going through this - keep with it, keep praying, keep good records!!

I was very fortunate that Epidermolysis Bullosa is in the "adult qualifying blue book" for social security - meaning that this disease has been determined to be so severe that after proving you have the disease and proving that you seek medical attention you can get approved. I think it was easier for me than for many other. I also had a great support system full of prayers and I want to take a minute to thank them all! You will never know how much that meant to me.

I have been to a new Derm. at Mayo Clinic who has a possible short term "treatment" for the disease, provided the insurance will pay for it. I will update you all on that as it happens. I have also seen a pain management doctor and have a bone mineral analysis tomorrow (don't know, don't ask...).

On to the sad news - Barak Obama is going to be the new president - CRAP! Oh well, I will keep praying that he is not the evil person I think him to be.

I am still waiting for a decision on my appeal from Unum (private insurance), hopefully that will be approved by the new year. I am now asking for your continued prayers for this approval as well.

thank you all so much for everything!!

Love you guys!!
Janel

Back to the hospital!!

2008-08-10T09:52:00.000-07:00

ARE YOU KIDDING ME!!!

So Thurday I woke up choking and couldn't swallow anything - not even my own spit. Now this is not the first time that this has happened - sometimes I get a blister in my throat or it swollen because of sinus drainage etc. It usually clears up very quickly. I had a really bad feeling about it this time and I called my doctor that did the dillitation. He was very concerned about the fact that I couldn't swallow anything. He told me to come it right away and that he would probably have to admit me to the hospital.

I got down there and he saw that there was nothing going down and sent me over to check into the hospital and get another CT scan done, this time of my neck.

I will spare you all the horrible details of the fact that I was so dehydrated that they couldn't get an IV started and ended up sticking me 4 times and blew 3 veins etc.... and get to the good part. Their were no perforations of my esophagus and it was just swollen shut, so they started the fluids and some more prednisone. The prednisone finally got the swelling down and I was finally able to swallow at about 11am on Friday - I just got home yesterday at noon. Don't ask why the delay in getting released - I DON'T KNOW.

I would really like to take this opportunity to say that I HAVE THE BEST FRIENDS IN THE WORLD!! Kristin left work to meet me to pick up MacK (b/c I couldn't get in touch with Shaun!!) - she ended up having to get back to work so her WONDERFUL SIL came and kept her. Tami took Friday off and drove down and kept MacK at home all day and night until I got home yesterday!! Needless to say - thank you just doesn't seem to even come close to expressing the graditude that I have for them all!!!

Bottom line is that I am fine - I am great, my throat feels wonderful and I am rested and back to 100% (at least for today!! haha)

thank you all for your prayers and support!!

Just another day at Mayo

2008-08-05T06:06:00.000-07:00

So, I'll make this short b/c I don't feel the greatest.

Yesterday I had another dillitation and b/c of all the pain that I have been in the dr. went all the way down to my stomach. First of all, he looked at my CT scan and said that the "hernia" that the ER saw is not a hernia at all, but the large intestine that replaces my espohagus.

OK - So my question - what hurts??? hurts so bad that oxycodone isn't helping!

After my proceedure Mom and I went back to see the Dr. and he said that the pain is coming from a very large and very nasty ulcer. Back on meds twice a day for the ulcer. I took one dose yesterday and I can already feel a small improvement on the pain scale.

He is alos running some liver function blood tests, but said that he feels it is inlarged because of the prolonged use of prednisone and the subsiquent (sp??) weight gain. Especially because I gained so much so fast.

I am off the prednisone and don't plan on getting on any more any time soon - but I am getting on a big fat DIET as soon as I feel better.

Just another day at the ER!

2008-07-29T09:37:00.000-07:00

So Thursday night I started having some really bad cramping, like period cramps (sorry dudes! just a little female chat! Feel free to keep reading if the "female problems" discussion doesn't bother you!). But here's the problem with that - I wasn't due for my period and I don't really get cramps anymore since my IUD about 4 months ago. This is when it hits me - THE IUD!! Maybe its moved or something. So I tough it out Thursday night, and I really wasn't tough at all, cried and the whole nine yards! Friday AM I get up and call my OB/GYN and tell them about the symptoms that I am having. She says my Dr. is off but the nurse will do an ultrasound to make sure everything is ok with the IUD.

I race over to the dr and get the ultrasound done - internal ultrasound - need I say more..... Anyway! Everything is fine "down there" and the nurse says we can schedule you for a formal scan next week just to check your ovaries etc, but if you continue to have pain over the weekend you may need to go to the ER. (btw - that is my least favorite phrase EVER!)

Like most people I HATE the ER! I hate seeing a Dr. who doesn't know me or anything about my conditions especially EB. So Saturday I take my 800 mg of Motrin and go about my day, same thing on Sunday. The Motrin isn't working that well so Sunday night I take some Tylenol on top of the Motrin. I was in so much pain Sunday even through all the meds that I started to throw up. At this point, it was basically too late to go to the ER b/c Shaun had to be at work at 3:30am.

I waited until he got home from work at 8:30 and called my regular Dr. who told me .... go to the ER! DAMMIT! So off to the ER I went. I got there at about 8:45 and was finally released at about 4:30 yesterday afternoon. After a blood test, a urine test and a CT scan I found out that I have a VERY nasty UTI AND a hernia! a HERNIA! WHAT!

So I am on pain meds and another antibiotic and have an appointment with my Gastroenterolgist (sp?) to talk about my hernia!

Just wanted to update everyone on whats new with me! I guess its nothing new that I'm sick - just a different kind of sick this time!

Need Your Help

2008-07-11T06:02:00.000-07:00

The last week in October is National Epidermolysis Bullosa Awareness Week. I really want to do something big this year to help raise the awareness of this terrible disease. Those of you who know me know that I am having a much harder time now than I have in the past. Even with as bad as my skin is now, it is nothing compared to some other children that are dying as you read.

So - I need your help, support and ideas - PLEASE comment on this post any ideas that you might have that I can do or organize or help with something that is already going on. My ultimate goal is to educate as many people as possible to help raise awareness and raise some money in the process for research.

ALL IDEAS ARE WELCOME!!

Oh what a crappy day!

2008-07-03T16:51:00.001-07:00

So, most of you know that my skin has been a terrible mess - worse than "normal" lately, well I had 3 dr. appointments today. The first was with my OB for my normal yucky appointment, as if that isn't bad enough for a day - try to do it covered in blisters - I feel bad for my dr - who audibly cringed when he saw my sores today. So straight from there I had to go to my dermatologist for a "follow-up" and while there I had an appointment to get my pictures done. And, by "pictures" I mean, I wasn't sitting in front of a pretty country backdrop having some headshots done. Oh no! I mean pictures of all of my sores, I thought the nurse that stood in was going to puke or cry.

The derm did a SCC check to make sure that we weren't missing anything did a biopsy of a spot on the back of my hand and as I type the numbing meds are wearing off and HOLY CRAP that hurts!

I was in so much pain on my way home for the dr. that I wasn't able to go to the pharmacy to get my scripts filled, not to mention I had bled through my shirt in 3 different places. On my painfilled drive home my husband called to tell me that I finally got my letter from Social Security regarding my disability claim and OH WHAT A SHOCK - it was denied! so let the waterworks begin - I just cried the rest of the drive.

Imagine missing 50% of your skin from your trunk, feeling like you have been set on fire, and bleeding from both of your armpits to be told by a government agency that your condition is "not severe enough" - ARE YOU F-ING KIDDING ME!!!!

anyway - my hand is throbbing and my legs feel as though they have been set on fire and I'm just too damn depressed to keep yipping!

Sorry to bitch my way through this blog - but I really needed to vent and my mouth is so broken out that talking hurts so I just couldn't call Tami.

Thanks for "listening".

I remember....

2008-06-29T19:07:00.000-07:00

So, I totally suck at updating this blog and the story associated with it! I finally have some time to elaborate on my story, but, I thought I would start by telling you what I have been up to.

First, I found a website dedicated to those parents, caregivers and sufferers of Epidermolysis Bullosa and I have spent a significant amount of time there gaining all kinds of knowledge and hopefully making some helpful suggestions to others. In doing this and meeting others with the same disease it became very important to me to go to the Patient Care Conference in Denver, Co. last week. That was about the best decision I have made in a very long time. My mom ended up coming with me and we spent two solid days in seminars and panel discussions and checking out new bandages and meeting all kinds of people. It was by far one of the best experiences of my life. While we were there I got a chance to hear Dr. Wagner speak about the bone marrow transplant clinical trial that they are working on as a cure for EB. He was very specific about the risks and those that are candidates (which I am not). They have done two successful transplants so far and were working on the third while I was in Denver.

Here's where the story takes a very sad and tragic turn ... The third patient was a baby by the name of Sarah Mooreland. Sarah was 9 months old and was in the beginning of the testing that is done before the actual transplant. Sweet baby Sarah died on Friday before she was able to get the transplant. They are unsure at this time exactly what killed her, whether it was complications from the testing or complications from the disease or something else. I will think of Sarah and pray for her family daily, for it is families like hers that make medical breakthroughs, treatments and cures possible for the rest of us. I never had the pleasure of meeting baby Sarah or her family, but we are bound by the ties of this terrible disease and I am eternally greatful to them on a very personal level. Please stop reading and say a prayer for the Mooreland family.

So, since my last post I have spent a significant amount of time at the doctor as well. I was having a very hard time healing even after a 2 week dose of steroids. I started seeing a new dermatologist and I really like her. She really take the time to understand me and research the disease and that alone makes her a hero in my book. At my first visit they did blood work and took swabs of my sores. The swabs came back as MRSA - if you know me you know I have been MRSA paranoid for MONTHS - and of course my fears became reality. I have just finished a month long dose of antibiotics with another round of steroids and although the infection has cleared up - the sore unfortunately have not. So, I just keep on hoping and praying that one day I will be blister free again.

Ok - now back to the story.

When I was very young I started having problems swallowing (3 or 4) - my mom drug me around to every doctor she could find, until finally she found Dr. Rivkin. Dr. Rivkin gave my parents more information about EB in the first appointment than they had ever known. Over the next couple years Dr. Rivkin would do several dilliations of my esophagus. After a while the dillitations were cause more problems that they were doing good. It was time to make some tough decisions. Dr. Rivkin suggested replacing my esophagus with a piece of my large intestine. My parents called the DeBRA nurse who strongly suggested that they NOT do the surgery and just do a g-tube instead (basically a feeding tube and me never eat or swallow anything again). Thankfully, my parents decided to do the surgery - as I sit here and remember what it was like before the surgery the g-tube would not have worked for me anyway - I couldn't swallow water - or spit! I would literally have liquid get caught in my esophagus and have to throw up to get it back out. I would go days with something lodged in my esophagus, I even tried to stand on my head and jump up and down to get it to move (seriously! its ok to laugh - but desperate times called for desperate measures - it didn't work!).

Before I entered the hospital to have the first surgery I was 9 years old and weighed 42lbs, my esophagus was only 3mm wide. I had to enter the hospital a couple of days before my surgery for some prep work, basically they had to "clean" me out. The very cool thing was that my best friend at the time checked into the hospital at the same time that I did - she just had her tonsils out. She was there the day before her surgery too (oh how times have changed). So, after our parents left from visiting hours we donned our slippers and ran the halls of the hospital - which by the way didn't have a childrens ward. For those of you who where at Windy Hill Hospital back in the early 80's - SORRY! We had the most fun that night, riding the elevator and checking out every single floor. I got to visit Carrie after her surgery the next day and then I got transferred to another hospital (no it wasn't for bad behavior!). Windy Hill Hospital decided that they didn't have the capacity to handle such a small child with such a big surgery - so they took me to Northside Hospital.

That first surgery took 11 hours. 11 hours.................. I cannot imagine sitting by while my child is in surgery for 11 hours! Who can perform such a risky surgery for 11 hours. I mean, when do the doctors go to the bathroom - I just don't understand how that works. Do they take a lunch break? Do their feet hurt from standing for so long? Do they just stop and grab a diet coke? I mean 11 HOURS - I think the only thing that I have done for 11 straight hours is sleep!

My mom says that I was never in the hospital for more than 2 weeks - in my 9 year old head it was more like 2 months. I spent a couple days in critical care, I spent a couple more days in ICU and then was moved to a private room for the remainder of my stay. I remember the nurses were wonderful. I remember being very hungry and not allowing anyone to eat in my room (I was not allowed to eat or drink anything until the surgery sites were healed - so the whole time is was in the hospital). I remember turning the TV off everytime a food commercial came on. I remember that when they came to change my feeding tube bag the nurses would ask me what I want to eat - anything that I said they would write on the bag - pizza and potato chips. I remember telling a phlabodamist (sp?) that he couldn't take my blood, so he went down to the nurses station and told the nurses that he needed them to hold me down and they told him no! They told him he would have to wait until my parents got there and then I would let him take my blood (see I was smart even then!). I remember after I could eat I wouldn't eat what they sent me, the dietician came up and told me that she would personally make me anything I wanted to eat - and she did! I remember that after my parents would leave from visiting hours the nurses would come in and play cards or board games with me. And I remember that before I checked out of the hospital the nurses gave my brother and I a wheel chair and let us go wild on the floor. We had so much fun that day!

I keep saying my first surgery because I had 2 other following the first to fix some complications from the first. All of the "things I remember" could have been from any of those 3 hospital stays.

I want to end this post by thanking all the nurses out there who have not lost thier compassion and who can relate to a kid who is scared and alone and who gave me some very fond memories of what truely was a very difficult time. I don't remember any of their names and never had a chance to speak to any of them after I left the hospital - but, hopefully, somehow they will hear this thank you!

I also want to urge other parents of EB patients to consider this option if there are no others. Please don't let your children die of malnurtition because the doctors think its too risky. It worked for me, it worked for Jamie and it has worked for several other EB adults. I'm not by any means saying it is right for everyone - but I think it is an option for some and I got the distinct impression at the conference that the doctors think it too risky and are possibly not offering it as an option.

Please feel free to comment - I know that I rambled a lot and I am not going back to proof read - so please forgive the mistakes and misspelled words.

good night to everyone - sleep well.
Janel

When it all started

2008-05-31T06:41:00.001-07:00

As I told you in my last post, I have Recessive Dystrophic Epidermolysis Bullosa. It is hereditary and many people could be a carrier and not know. In my case my family has Dominant Dystropic EB, unbeknowst to anyone, my mother is an EB carrier - therefore I got the recessive type - which is much worse than the dominant type. Again - visit http://www.debra.org/ for more information.

so - let the story begin:

I was born on June 10th in Ohio. When I was born I had no skin on the inside of my left foot, no toenails and many blisters and sores.

Even though this disease is hereditary, I recently found out that my family didn't have a diagnosis for it until I was born. So, imagine their suprise when I came out the mess that I was. I have seen pictures of myself in an incubator and seen pictures with blisters on my face and I still have the scar on my foot as a reminder of how fragile I was when I was born.

My mother has told me stories about how difficult it was to care for me as a baby. If you picked me up under the arms I blistered where you touched me. She had to sew very soft pieces of fabric to the backs of the buttons and snaps on my baby clothes to keep them from rubbing blisters. Diaper changes were a challenge, etc. etc.

Now, being the mother of a 20 month old, I have a new appreciation for what my mother and father went through trying to take care of me. The other day I turned around and didn't realize that MacK was right behind me and I knocked her down. She didn't get hurt but I still felt so terrible. I can't imagine the pain and guilt that my parents and family felt when they caused sores and blisters simply from touching me.

I can remember having clothing or bandages stick to the sores that I had. Pulling the material off would have caused more sores and blistering, so I would have to soak in the tub until the skin would release the material. I also remember mom using baby oil to get it released without causing too much damage.

To this day there are few doctors that know much if anything about this disease - so you can image how difficult it was for my parents to find compitant doctors to care for me. My mom took me to so many doctors that I became scared of men.

I can't really remember when I first started having problems swallowing, but that problem is what led us to the man that saved my life (or at least the quality of it), Dr. Rivken. He put me on prednisone to help control my outbreaks and dilated my esophagus so that I could swallow better, and eventually replaced my esophagus with a piece of my large intestine.

Needless to say that is a very long story that I will save for next time.

Its Saturday and as soon as my crazy baby girl wakes up from her nap we are going to play in the pool!

I hope you have a wonderful weekend!
Janel

Let me introduce myself

2008-05-30T19:40:00.000-07:00

Hi! I'm Janel Waters, a 33 year old mother of 1.

I am a firm believer that you never know what is going on with someone else, so don't judge them! It will suprise many that know me to know that I have a hereditary skin disease called Epidermolysis Bullosa. This devistating disease causes me to have very large and painful blisters which turn into large painful open wounds.

I have downplayed this disease and its effect on my life for many years now. I have had friends for years who knew nothing about it. 95% of the people that I used to work with and my customers had no idea that I have lived with this disease every day since I was born.

Well - though this blog I am "coming out". I will give you a no holds barred look at my life since birth - the good, the bad and mostly the ugly. At some point in the future I may even post some pictures of the sores that I have just so that you can get an idea of what I am talking about.

Before I get started with my story, I invite you to do a little research on this disease, feel free to go to www.debra.org. I have recessive dystrophic epidermolysis bullosa (RDEB).

I will begin my story at a later date.

for tonight - goodnight and God Bless
Janel